[[M E R R I L Y M E M O R Y]]

Okay...I got a new layout. Yes...I know...I think I've changed layouts too much over the past few weeks...but whatever. I was getting sick of the whole black links thingy...so I changed it to this one. It isn't Dir en grey...but again...I still like it. It was made by premade_ljs.

~*[Nanashi]*~

PLEASE DO NOT REQUEST OFF THIS PLAYLIST!!! MY COMPUTER HAS DIED [OR AT LEAST, I'M PRETTY SURE IT IS DEAD] SO THAT MEANS THAT THIS PLAYLIST IS DEAD! DO NOT REQUEST!

This is my playlist of all the jrock/jpop PVs/clips/mp3s/fanvideos I own on this computer. If you would like anything...feel free to ask for it. Do be paitent though...I do get very busy at time and sometimes won't be able to get your request up fast enough. As you can see...I'm still collecting. My list is not close to being done.

[UPDATED]: April 29th, 2006

( My Playlist )

~*[Nanashi]*~

Chucks

What kind of shoe are you?

At least I stayed within the range of a tennis shoe type...thing...

( Ready Steady Go! )

~*[Nanashi]*~

Okay...so I'm a little late. But...better late then never...



Yes...Happy Birthday to you Niikura Kaoru aka KaoKao [to me ^-^]. 32 years old and still amazingly sexy. XD! You're are an amazing guitarist and amazing composer. Your work has touched my heart many a times. Your guitar solos are brillant [though...could you give some more to Die? XD!] and just everything about you is brillant. You act so harsh on the outside...but on the inside...you are still a little kid at heart. Keep up the work Kaoru and keep being your awesome self. :)

Love Always,

Melissa ♥



Geez Die...give a girl a chance here...



~*[Nanashi]*~

Finally...all the requests are done and up! XD!

If anything is missing that you requested...please tell me. I'm positive I didn't miss anything...but still...I could have. I'm very glad that I could finally give back to the community.

Also...if you take anything...do leave a comment just so I know. :)

Then lastly...enjoy! ^^

( Requested Items )

~*[Nanashi]*~

Just a reminder to all of you that this journal is Friends Only. I'm sure you all know the drill...comment to be added. Anyone who is on my Friend's List...obviously...you guys don't have to comment. FO banner used here was made by rayna_bebop.

~*[Nanashi]*~

Post anything that you want here, and post it anonymously. a story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love, anything. make sure to post anonymously and honestly. post as many times as you'd like. then, put this in your LJ to see what others have to say.


(I don't know how to fix it to make it so it will automatically turn into an anonymous post...so just remember that little fact. Sorry I can't fix it. ^^;;)


~*[Nanashi]*~

Yes...Happy Birthday to you sexy. 31 and still kicking...though you could drop the habit of smoking and drinking...that would help you live longer. Though...if you did that...you would never be the same...would you? *smile* Anyway...again...happy birthday to you. You're an amazing person who has inspired me to do things that I probably would have never done in the first place...like trying to play guitar. I don't know how well that is going...we've got to still get me into some lessons...but hopefully...I'll be able to play guitar someday. Not as good as you of course. ^^! You've also inspired me to be the person I am...not who people want me to be. I think I've known that lesson for a long time...but you've just drilled it into my head. lol! But really...I could seriously list so many more ways to why you're amazing and why I love you...but we'd be here all day. So I just want to say one last thing; stay the way you are DaiDai...don't ever change.

Love you always ♥,

Melissa


Oops...

Here is a site that I found that has Led Zeppelin's song 'Stairway to Heaven' on it...backwards. So...just listen to the song (or at least the part of the song) forward first and then listen to it backwards and see if you here the words that are in the little boxs. It is really intresting and cool.

Stairway to Heaven // Led Zeppelin

~*[Nanashi]*~

My fic is finally all updated in the two communities I post in...so I thought that I would post it in a update for those of you who do not have these two communities (diexkaorulove and jrockyaoi). The links below will lead you to each chapter that was posted in diexkaorulove. There is a LEMON in the last chapter...so you are warned. Anyway...ENJOY!

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5

~*\Nanashi\*~

So...I finally posted my DiexKaoru story on two of the communities here...jrockyaoi and diexkaorulove. I'm glad to say that I finally did it because I never thought it was going to be posted. Thanks again ^*^PinkSakura^*^ (aloneinshadow89) for correcting my horrible spelling/grammer. I wish I wasn't so bad with that. Hopefully I will get better in the future because I really want to do something with writing in the future. Though...it won't be fanfiction because that won't get me anywhere in life. Anyway...if you would like to check out the story the link for it is here:

http://www.livejournal.com/community/jrockyaoi/274076.html?#cutid1

Warning!: The story does contain a lemon! But...other than that please enjoy! ^-^

~*~Nanashi~*~

After a while of debating with myself...I decided to make my journal friends only. Nothing personal to to the public...just decided to make it friends only. So...you know the rules...comment to be added. And if I don't add you as a friend...don't take it personal. I just feel that we don't have anything in common...that's all. FO banner here is made by rayna_bebop

~*~Melissa~*~

Your inner soul is calling for help! You always
seem so depressed, lonely, and feel like an
outsider. You may have a cold, sad exterior,
but in all reality you are hurt inside and
bottling up all of your anger. Everyday you
wonder why are you still here when there is
nothing left? You use to once be a happy,
loving soul, but it was damaged by 'them' and
seems like it never can be fixed again.
However, you have yet seemed to realize that
there are people out there that deeply care for
you. They secretly have a thing for you because
they find you to be dark, mysterious, and full
of secrets, not to mention being the prettiest
person in the world! You like to enjoy your
time by yourself expressing your feelings
through forms of art, and enjoy nice quiet
scenaries that just dazzle your mind with awe.
Your bedroom is basically your sanctuary where
you can hide out, hidden from those who gave
you all of the pain. Try to loosen up and have
some fun! Never start frowning because you
never know who's falling in love with your
smile :)


What Is Your Inner Soul Trying To Say?
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You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
realistic about life.(If you can't see tje
pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)


What season are you? (pics)
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Your heart is hard and inpentitrable.You have no
feelings for anyone else but yourself and a few
close friends.Having your trust is hard,but not
as hard as keeping it.Once your fully trusted
your friend you are surportive and caring.


What Kind of Angel are You like?
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Alright...must post because Alex can't find the link to the last chapter in my Die/Kaoru story. And...I changed the whole thing! Not kidding...almost every sentence is changed and I think that it turned out a lot better than before. I'll post the link at the end of the update. I really don't have much to say today...didn't do a hell of a lot. I did some laundry, took the dogs and cat to vet...at that was it. Mom wanted me to go to a PartyLite Show...but I told her no and she like...went all bitchy on me...but when doesn't she? Anyway...I really think that is all that I have to say. I really can't think of anything else. Oh...but I want to post this picture of Die because I think he looks like he is completely on crack and his face is really funny! *whee* Here you go...



Funny Die! *whee*

( Link To Thrid Part Of Invisible )

Five random facts about you:
1. I'm human
2. I can drive
3. I'm in MarchingBand
4. I have a cat named Joey Kyo George
5. I don't have any soda in my house

Five things you love:
1. My Friends
2. Daiskue Andou
3. Kaoru Niikura
4. My Cat
5. Soda

Five things you hate:
1. Stuck Up People
2. Homophobics
3. School In Genreal
4. People Who Always Think They Are Right
5. Life In General (At Times)

Five things that scare you:
1. Heights
2. Spiders
3. Horror Movies
4. Death
5. My Mother

Five things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1. Look
2. Personality 3. Eyes
4. Talents
5. Humor

Five things you plan to do before you die:
1. Live In/Visit Japan
2. Go To A Jrock Concert (Dir en grey Would Be The Best)
3. Get Married
4. Have Kids
5. Learn Japanese

Five celebrities you would have sex/make love to:
1. Die
2. Kaoru
3. Kyo
4. Gackt
5. Daniel Radcliffe

Five TV shows that you liked when you were a kid:
1. Power Rangers
2. Gargoyles
3. Teenage Muntant Ninja Turtles
4. X-men
5. Goosebumps

Five favorite movies:
1. Harry Potter
2. The Nightmare Before Christmas
3. Willy Wonk And The Chocolate Factory
4. Lord of The Rings
5. Spiderman

Five CDs from your collection that you never get tired of:
1. Dir en grey - Gauze
2. Dir en grey - Vulgar 3. Dir en Grey - Withering to death
4. Moon - Gackt
5. Dir en grey - Six Ugly

Five songs tha get stuck in your head frequently:
1. Dir en grey - Yokan
2. Dir en grey - Jesus Christ R n' R
3. Dir en grey - Cage
4. Dir en grey - Child Prey
5. PussyCat Dolls - Don't Cha (Sadly Enough)

Five favourite songs in your MP3 list (Don't Have One...But If I Did):
1. Dir en grey - Cage
2. Dir en grey - Yokan 3. Dir en grey - Drain Away
4. Dir en grey - Child Prey
5. Dir en grey - Merciless Cult

Five things on your desk right now:
1. Empty Can of Soda
2. Flonase
3. A Picture of Die and Kaoru
4. One of My Stories
5. Batteries

Five things in your room:
1. My Bed
2. My Computer
3. My Desk
4. My Stereo
5. Dir en grey pictures

Five things you'd like to learn:
1. How to Speak Japanese
2. How to Play Gutair
3. How to Draw
4. How to Play Bass
5. How to Make Die's Cage Outfit

Five things you do when you're bored:
1. Go On the Computer
2. Eat
3. Listen to jrock...Scratch That...I do it all the Time
4. Try and Write Something
5. Sleep

Five things that never fail to cheer you up:
1. Dir en grey
2. Alex
3. Devan
4. Thinking About The KR[cube] PV
5. Summer

Five things you say the most:
1. Shit
2. Fuck
3. Um
4. Damn it
5. lol

Five beverages you drink frequently:
1. Montain Dew Live Wire
2. Mountain Dew
3. Coke
4. Milk
5. Juice

Five things you would eat on the last day of your life:
1. Ramen
2. Pocky
3. Pizza
4. Beef Jerky
5. White Chocolate Resse's

Five places to go in your city:
1. Mall
2. Moive Theater
3. Pick n' Save
4. School
5. Friends House's

Five vacations you have taken:
1. Wisconsin Dells
2. Bradly Center 3. New York for Macy's
4. Atlanta, Georgia
5. Nowhere

Two songs that make you happy:
Dir en grey - Raison d'etre
Dir en grey - Yokan
Two songs that make you cry:
My Heart Will Go On - Celine Dion
Don't Know The Song...

Two songs that remind you of love:
I Can't Think of the Name...

Two songs that remind you of you:
Cage - Dir en grey
THE FINAL - Dir en grey

Two songs that make you ponder life:
Kasumi - Dir en grey
Drain Away - Dir en grey

Two songs you like but are ashamed to admit:
That's When I'll Stop Loving You - *NSYNC

Two songs for dancing:
Rasion d'etre - Dir en grey
Yokan - Dir en grey

Two songs to be played at your wedding:
Raison d'etre - Dir en grey (lol!)
Really Don't Know...

Two songs to be played at your funeral:
Akuro no Oka - Dir en grey
Raison d'etre - Dir en grey (Remeber Alex! lol!)

Two songs to be played really loudly:
Merciless cult - Dir en Grey
Cage - Dir en grey

Two songs to help you sleep:
Drain Away - Dir en grey
Akuro no Oka - Dir en grey

Alright...so Devan, Alex and I began to have long converstations on our posts. But...then my computer decided to be a butt a freeze on me...so I had to shut it down. Well...then my aunt called for my mom and they were on the phone for like...50 minutes. I came back then...and what do I find? 15 emails about comments posted on lj posts! Mostly from Devan! I was like...WTF?!? I called Alex...and asked what the hell went down...she explained it to me. Well...I didn't read all the emails...I'm sorry! I didn't feel like it...too many to read and reply to. I'm lazy...yes. But...anyway...that is all. Fixing up my story to post tommorrow! Yeah!

~*~Melissa~*~

Three days into vacation and I've actually done more than I've done in the first three days of my other summer vacations! lol! I've gone to baseball games...I've done a behind the wheel and helped pick out a kitty! I wonder what the rest of my summer is going to be like! XD! Anyway...I'm happy to announce that I posted my Die/Kaoru story on the jrockyaoi community...so if you wish to go read it...since I'll be nice...I'll put the links in a cut at the end of this short post because I really don't know what else to write. Anyway...I twecked the stories just a bit...the first two parts at least. I'm going to be twecking the third part just a bit...I really don't like my beginning to it. Then...I will be posting that part...the third part...tomorrow. Other than about my stories...I think I have little to say. This is the biggest thing I'm going to say...I DIDN'T DIE! *whee* I lived my Freeway Behind the Wheel...or FBTW for short! lol! I almost did get in trouble though...*gasp*. The story is...when I looked back to check to see if I could merge onto the freeway...I let my hands move with my head and began to turn the car. I freaked myself out and Alex...not the Alex on lj...but my other friend Alex. Hell...if she wasn't awake then (we had this thing at 8 in the morning!) she was after that experience! The driving instructor grabbed the wheel and turned me back on...THANK GOD! I was a little nervous after that...but I did calm down and was able to drive back to the driving school. So...other than that 'problem'...I did really good. At least...*looks worried*...I think I did! lol! Alex did well too...though she kind of would stop about 5 feet AFTER the stop sign. So...to help her with that...she had to drive down this road that has about...6 stop signs...ALL IN A ROW! It made me laugh lightly...but she improved at the end...so that was good! ^^! So...all in all...it went quite well...I believe. Alright...other than that...I don't think I have anything else to update on. I should be doing laundry...I have like...two massive piles in my room that just keep growing. The sad thing is...I found my high-heeled boots that I have...under a pile of those clothes! That...is very sad! I should do laundry...but I was so tired today. I couldn't fall alseep until like midnight...when I went to bed at like...11 or so. Oh...almost forgot. I was looking at people who cosplay Diru yesterday...and I found somebody who did a really good outfit of Kaoru from Drain Away...it was really amazingly cool! ^^! And...then...there was other outfits that were horrible! I saw some very...ugly Macabre Die...and I mean VERY UGLY! They made the outfit...but completely didn't do any of the studs on the outfit...NOTHING! It made me cringe to look at them! The girl that Devan met at the convention who cosplayed Die...she was AMAZING! But...these other people make me afraid to cosplay Die when I go next year! I'm worried! I really hope that my costume turns out alright! *prays* The sad thing is...I'm worrying about it...and it isn't for another 11 months! God...I feel completely pathetic! T_T! But...anyway...now...I'm sure that that is all I have to write. Links for my stories at the bottom of the page...if you wish to read. And Cindy...I'M STILL WAITING FOR MY ICON!! But...I miss you much...along with everyone else! Have a great summer!

~*~Melissa~*~

( Links To Stories )

Well...I haven't update for like...god knows how long...so I might as well update. Well Sunday I went to a grad party for my cousin...and I really didn't want to go. I don't really associate with that side of the family and I just didn't feel like going. I don't like doing a lot of family things lately...and I wonder why. *shrugs* Whatever. But...I was forced to go...so I went. When we got there...my mom began to talk to her cousin Carrie...who lives in Michigan. And...she decided to bring up that I was being a crab and that I didn't want to be there. Yeah...great idea mom! Tell Chuck's (he was the graduate) aunt that I don't want to be there! Smart idea! So...she embarrassed me in the first 2 minutes of being there...then she did again when she told Carrie that I hadn't shaved my legs...and that was why I was wearing pants. THANKS AGAIN MOM!!! God...parents! So...I walked away and sat down on the ground...facing away from the party. Two of my mom's cousin's came and asked what was wrong...trying to get me to talk and I didn't want to...but I answered...then they left me along and Chuck's sister...Kelly came over and began to talk to me. She is ok...but she is really quiet. I swear that she will become and Ax Murder or something! lol! But...anyway...she wondered what was on my arm. Only a while before that...I wrote 'Japanese Zombie Heroez' on my right arm...just like Kaoru. It was to annoy mom and anybody else. So...I showed her my notebook. I took one of my notebooks...which has a picture of Diru (too lazy to type the fullname! lol!) on it...dressed as girls. Kelly said something...I said they were guys and she said that crossdressing is gross and that they all look like girls and that Die is completely freak. Also...because they dressed in black...they are gothic! lmao! I told her they were guys...she had to show off the pictures to her dad...who said they were guys...but dressed as girls. So...he realized they were guys...but that isn't the point. Then...Kelly said that liking anyone like that is disgusting. Stupid Bitch...so closed minded. lol! But...anyway...she said it is stupid to listen to their music because I can't understand what they are saying and all this other crap. And...she complained about how ugly it is for me to wear my Hot Topic pants and...just...grr! Mad me pissed...so I just began to ignore her. The day went on and Chuck...suprisingly said that the picture on my notebook was cool...so he didn't mind it I guess...but maybe he thought they were hot girls! lmfao! I didn't tell him they were guys...so he didn't know! ^^! But...at the end of the 3 hours...I wished it hadn't been that long...another person...asked what the writing on my arm was...I told him...showed him the picture and he thought it was the band Kiss. I had to laugh lightly...and told him no...Japanese rock band Dir en grey. He asked if they were any good...I told him yes of course! XD! But...we left and that was it. So...that was Sunday. Monday I went to the humane society with Alex and her mom to get her cat. I saw a cute little one that is like...greyish black and I told Alex that she should play with it because it was just staring out of it's cage. So...she did and she fell in love with him. And now...that he is finally home...he has been dubbed...*drumroll* Kaoru Murphy! XD! Yes...Kaoru everyone! And today...she picked him up. He is a very small...cute little kitty. Such a fuzzball! *whee* So...on today. Other than picking up the kitty...I saw my friend Li Man. She is from Hong Kong...I met her this year in Geometry class. I said goodbye to her because she is leaving for China tomorrow. T_T! She'll be back next year though...yeah! ^^! Oh...I also went to a baseball game with Devan. Her cousin Max was playing. We didn't watch the game much...but what we did see...was that the other team's pitcher was horrible! lol! We mostly played on the play ground...well on the swings. Either swinging on the swings or swing the baby swings with noone in them. We called Alex...and when I was talking on the phone with her...Devan went to poke me and I fell off the swing! lmao! It was pretty funny...I admit! XD! Anyway...I think that is all because my hand is starting to hurt from typing all this. Oh...changed my background/theme/icon today. I think I'm going to stick with it...but I'm not sure about the background...might change the picture though. *shrugs* I'll decide.

~*~Melissa~*~